HAPPY

18th BIRTHDAY

TO ME!!!!

This is just me venting.... it's probably pretty boring especially since it doesn't narrow anything down....

I HATE venting on the internet... but sometimes there is nowhere else to go...and no one to go to... or atleast it seems that way.... There is SOOOO much on mind right now and I can't help it..... I know I just need to sit down and talk to this person... but I'm scared it will cause WAY to much drama.... We NEVER fight.... EVER!!!! I just have so many questions.... I don't understand this whole situation AT ALL!!! I had a talk with Courtney yesterday and she made me feel better... She made me realize some stuff... and I think she is right.... but now I just want answers.... I just wanna know the truth... I know its being hidden.... and I'm not saying it is anything bad it's just.... I'm pretty sure I'm right this time.... I mean I was right last time... if people would listen to me we wouldn't be in this whole situation.... I'm SOOOO hurt.... I've had many talks with my mom because I don't know who else to go to.... I just really wanna talk openly and not worry about what the person will say.... but I know how it will come off and I don't wanna go through that... I don't wanna hurt anyone... by the way this has NOTHING to do with Travis!!!! N*E*WAYZ... I know I shouldn't accuse but I can't help it...I guess it's not really accussing though... it's just how I feel.... I felt this way for over 2 weeks now and I HATE IT!!!! Actually... part of this "situation" has been going on for a couple months and now it's ALL building up.... I wish I could see where my true friends are.... I doubt anyone will read this.... oh well.... it made me feel better.... well a little.... I'm sure I'd feel better if I wrote out the whole story but if they read it they would know who I was talking about.....

I LOVE TRAVIS!!!!! I can't believe it will be a year and 9 months on the 28th.... GOSHHHH!!!! I love him and HE'S ALL MINE!

I love Courtney toooo!!!! Without her I'd go CRAZY!!!!

DANG... it's been FOREVER! NO ONE used Xanga anymore and the ones that do they update like once a month! lol

Well... A LOT has happened! and yeah..... that's it! Graduation is soon and I can't wait! Prom is this Saturday! Helping with Highstepper Tryouts this week... the dance is soooo cute! I'm so sad I'm leaving but I'm also sooo excited about college!!!!!

hmm... well.... people are saying... ummm not very nice things about me AGAIN! gosh! It's soooo frustrating... I have never done anything to ANYONE ever! I'm a REALLY nice person I swear! It's not so much "trash talk" it's just little comments and those are what bother me the most! People I barely even know are kinda saying things... not really... but like... its things they have NO say in and it's just pointless for them to talk about! gah!People just REALLY need to start thinking before they speak! yeppppp!

I love Travis!!!!!!! A year and 7 months! WOOO!

and I love... Caitlen, Amanda, Cheri, Cassie and Courtney! I'm sure there are more... but I can't think right now!

Well... It's been a month! haha I just haven't really wanted to update... hmmm A lot has happened...

*Had 2 Highstepper Competitions! Did REALLY good at both of them! *Ordered my Senior Pictures...I can't wait to get them *I got straight A's on my last report card! lol I was happy! *Got my PROM DRESS!!! *Travis got me a Promise Ring for Valentines! I'ts PRETTY!!! *Made a movie with Jenny and Meagan for English over King Lear it was hilarious! *hmmm and other stuff I just can't remember right now...

Yesterday hung out with Cherisse and Courtney! That was fun!!! We went to the mall and tryed on a corsette it was cute! I wanted it! then we took Cheri home and Court, Thorn, Travis and I went to Chilis!

Today I went to a College thingy with my Mom AND I figured out where I'm going to college.... I'm gonna go to UTA and major in Interior Design or Psychology!!!! I'm EXCITED!!!!! AND Travis is probably gonna go with me! YAYYY!!!! AND I still get to live at home! haha so It's ALL GOOD!!!!!

On Winter Break right now... YAY!

OH AND....I'm gonna get a job soon! Well... hopefully!

I got my Senior Pictures in! actually my proofs but whatever....I LOVE THEM! They all turned out good! (not to be concieted... lol)

Football Banquet was last Saturday... it was fun everyone looked BEAUTIMIST!

Practice has been REALLY good so far this week... We have student teacher and she's really nice!

Ran 2 miles today and I had subway!!!! I love that place... especially when Ricky is working and gives it to me for a $1.40 haha!

Mock Competition on Saturday! YAYYYY!!!! We got all of our costumes today... they're sooooo cute!!!!! We're gonna do SOOOO good at competition!

I miss my brother

*Holly*

I LOVE TRAVIS.... 16 months on Saturday!!! DANGGGG! He's soooo amazing!!!!